my life started to change?

these few days i found out quite alot of things in my life
i meet a new man..
the man told me tat,my life will change after 2 years because of myself & my future man..
i wanted it really happen..
im 20 tis year..
10 more years im not gonna be cute & young anymore..
before tat i dint think bout it..
ofcoz..im still young wat..
but since im going to graduate..
im going to step in to the society n work...
im damn nervous actually..
i dun wan to be in the society so early..
i wan a man for my shoulder so badly..
the new guy told me tat..
my future man will come to me after 2 years probably..
his age around his age..
tat mean 10 years or more older den me..
tis is actually wat im thinking..
he had a plan too..
tis year end..about his birthday he will be leaving m'sia & go Melbourne..
n come back in 2 years time..
the day after he tell me all of tis..
i really do lot of thinking..
izzit he is the man was my future man..
other then tis..
i dint expect tat he miss me on tat day..
but i hav a sudden feeling tat i miss him too..
tis is my style..im so easy to fall for some1..
am i doing the right thing now?
i juz feel like i want him so badly..
i want to be wit him forever..
izzit possible?
he told me..
before he left her..
he want to know me more & more & more..
i did want it to be like tis..
love sparkles sparks right?
things goes like tis..
u meet a person in 1 second..
u know a person in 1 minit..
u fall for a person is juz in 1 hour..
u try to forget a person take whole life..
im scare i will harm him..
im scare i cant forget him when i fall for him..
i like the way he talks n i like his nose.. =)
why i always juz stuck in tis situation..
i tell myself stop fall for anybody..
get to know him 1st...
but i cant..
tis was my very big & worst weakness..
i cant stand it..
mayb i fell tat..i really hav a father..
he came to life to replace my father..
izzit like tat..
NO..
is not tis feeling at all..
i love him more then tat..
SHIIIIT!
i do it again..
tell me wat should i do.. =)

Stereo Hearts - Gym Class Heroes Ft. Adam Levine (Avery iphone cover)

about ppls bf

There have been a long time i din enter here..kinda miss it..

im here becoz i have sumthing to tell but non of a place can let me shout out..

not in facebook coz the related person was there...

not in twitter coz i dun hav any followers..

not in myspace coz i dun hav any...

not in tagged..tageed is a stupid place...they wont understand wat r u thinking..ther juz wan sex..

juz here..i fell tat here is a kinda save place to let me shout out..

some visitor came n pass by..left some comment for me..it feel so sweet sometimg when im bored or alone..

there was a incident,

i meet someone in tagged..tagged actually was a place who let people release thier sex urge..

i meet a guy there..

tat day i rang up his number..

n we hav a conversation..

at last i found out tat guys was my exclassmate bf..

OMG..

what should i do..

tat guy want me to help him..

ermm..suddently i felt im a prost.

i wanna tell u guys..

IM NOT A PROSTITUTE!

what i think in my mind is i juz want to go to the nice hotel tat he told me..i din even think about i wanna have sex wit him..

a question:

a guy that tell's ppl tat how much he loves his gf..

but his gf doesnt want to have sex wit him..

he show himself online n find a girl to stay a night with him..

DID HE REALLY LOVES HIS GIRLFRIEND??

is a curious in my mind right now..can anybody tell me?