life i have in this year

review back my previous post.
im kind of a kiddo last year.
a man that told me someone may walk in my life and is around his age.
at first it was him.
after that i meet a person who i totally loved.
i tot that person will be the first that love me with lots of love and he will be the last one.
but i dint put much confident on it,
because he was a malay.
a muslim.
i cant be so selfish and just walk in a religion that my family totally will not agree with it.
yes.
things doesnt goes easy.
when i have a great life there will always have a great test for me and my partner.
yes, at last we broke up.
things change in a sudden.
of cause is all about money.
yes i admit i fall for him is because of his money at first.
but the main thing is i love him.
even thou he was something last time.
he betrayed his own life before.
but he change,yet he did change for me,at last he change for others.
no faith with the guy i love.
end of a story with he left with others.
after him.
i dint walk in a relation for a period.
no game.
just focus on working.
came a guy.
a totally special guy.
he had a age of the special guy who told me last time.
yes.
he love me like a baby.
a small baby.
but like lifes says.
as his age.
what he want is commitment n family.
yes.
i admit im too young for him.
and i dont want any commitment in my life right now.
i have nothing.
i dont want to get hurt.
and yet he knew it.
i rejected him from his propose.
yes.
this guy propose to me.
the first time in my life i dint experience before.
i knew this will happen but i dint expect it happen so sudden and so soon.
my relation with this guy just a very short period.
today
i found out i did a correct decision.
i left him
he hide alot of things behind me.
even thou his friend as well.
luckily is not the time he came.
this year.
my life totally stuck in stupid love story.
i remember.
last year.
i confess my feeling to a guy that was my classmate before.
but get rejected.
is a huge joke.
yet now stuck with a stupid situation.
i just need an answer.
i dont want any commitment
i want my normal life back.
i know im not a kiddo now.
i dont want to waste my time
i want to do things i want to
this is the life i want it right now.
THANKS FOR ALL THE GUYS OUT THERE WHO HURTS ME ALOT.BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS I LEARNT ALOT.NOT TO CRY FOR ANYONE.NOT WORTH IT AT ALL!

did u knw~

DID U KNOW,
loneliness can literally make u sick. this feeling is associated with heart problem,viral infection, and increase chance of early death..

studies suggest that the psychological pain of a break up hurts just as much as physical injury.

human contact through hugs lowers blood pressure,release stress and reduce risk of heart disease.

BIG DICK NO BRAIN

some guys say tat they kene santau wit a girl..
n start to blame tat girl at public connection place..
do u think is a right way to do..
if u really love her..
u really appreciate her u wont blame her doing things like tis..
coz u r the guy who play a fool wit her..
go bang other girls..
cheat girls around.
.n most important thing is big dick no brain..
fuck tis kind of guy!

     yes!tis is the guy im talking about..he is really a dick head..
WARNING FOR ALL THE GIRLS AT EVERYWHERE!THIS GUY TRAVELS BETWEEN SYDNEY N MALAYSIA!HE IS THE GUY TAT BANGS AROUND WIT GIRLS BEHIND HIS GF..
AND SUMMORE HE HAV NO BRAIN..N HE HAVE SCHIZOPHRENIA(a type of mental disorder,thse kind of ppl no matter how good r u n how good u treat him,he will think tat u will harm him..will kill him..)THE SHITTIEST PART IS HE WONT APRECIATE N HE DUN EVER RESPECT PPL...HE IS A MIX..HE IS A MIX..N WAT A SHAME OF HIS FAMILY..

SEE WAT HE WROTE ON IS FB..HOW HE INSULT HIS EX GF N GIRLS..

SEE THE WAY HOW HE TALK..TIS ARE PROVE TAT CAN SHOW WAT HD TIS GUY DONE..SHITTIEST GUY I EVER SINCE..
MY DEAR GIRLS..PLS BEWARE THESE GUY..THKS~ =)

MOVIE 好友萬萬睡

Kelly Clarkson - Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You)

what doesn't kill you make u stronger!
i can feel tis song..i havelots of problem happen to me n need me to face it..
tis song is so perfect for my situation now~

my life started to change?

these few days i found out quite alot of things in my life
i meet a new man..
the man told me tat,my life will change after 2 years because of myself & my future man..
i wanted it really happen..
im 20 tis year..
10 more years im not gonna be cute & young anymore..
before tat i dint think bout it..
ofcoz..im still young wat..
but since im going to graduate..
im going to step in to the society n work...
im damn nervous actually..
i dun wan to be in the society so early..
i wan a man for my shoulder so badly..
the new guy told me tat..
my future man will come to me after 2 years probably..
his age around his age..
tat mean 10 years or more older den me..
tis is actually wat im thinking..
he had a plan too..
tis year end..about his birthday he will be leaving m'sia & go Melbourne..
n come back in 2 years time..
the day after he tell me all of tis..
i really do lot of thinking..
izzit he is the man was my future man..
other then tis..
i dint expect tat he miss me on tat day..
but i hav a sudden feeling tat i miss him too..
tis is my style..im so easy to fall for some1..
am i doing the right thing now?
i juz feel like i want him so badly..
i want to be wit him forever..
izzit possible?
he told me..
before he left her..
he want to know me more & more & more..
i did want it to be like tis..
love sparkles sparks right?
things goes like tis..
u meet a person in 1 second..
u know a person in 1 minit..
u fall for a person is juz in 1 hour..
u try to forget a person take whole life..
im scare i will harm him..
im scare i cant forget him when i fall for him..
i like the way he talks n i like his nose.. =)
why i always juz stuck in tis situation..
i tell myself stop fall for anybody..
get to know him 1st...
but i cant..
tis was my very big & worst weakness..
i cant stand it..
mayb i fell tat..i really hav a father..
he came to life to replace my father..
izzit like tat..
NO..
is not tis feeling at all..
i love him more then tat..
SHIIIIT!
i do it again..
tell me wat should i do.. =)

Stereo Hearts - Gym Class Heroes Ft. Adam Levine (Avery iphone cover)